Jan 6th : Thou shalt not stress about thy interview

Almost forgot to post!
(a whole one hour late)

Today I woke up happy, which is a first in a long time.

Also happy because the guy who gave us the briefing for the housemanship interview today was really nice.
He put us all at ease about what we'd be likely to face tomorrow,
so I actually do feel much better about the interview already.

But omg I actually don't know what to say if they ask me to introduce myself.
Or if they ask me "Why medicine?"

Ad-libbing it is!

Jan 5 : Referee

Two minutes ago,
I was about to post : "I am finding it very difficult to be happy today" and leave it at that.
Today really has been a bad day.

But I just received an email from someone I admire very, very much,
allowing me to state them as a referee for my resume.

(I asked if I could use them as a reference, and the reply was..)
"Yes Vidya, you may use me as a REFEREE"
(in caps, no less)

And now I'm just sitting here, both laughing and crying at the same time.

Thank you, Dato'.

And thank You, God, for this silver lining.



EDIT :
Squealing now because another one of my favourite lecturers replied!
It's 12.02am, I don't care this still counts as Jan 5th.

Jan 4 : Little Things

Decided to start titling my posts properly instead just the date, for easier archiving.

Promised myself I wouldn't take the easy way out and say things like
"being able to come back home to my teddy bears made me happy today"
...because that makes me happy every day.


But today was an incredibly long day, with OT, and classes, and traffic jams, and incessant rain,
and I genuinely mean it when I say today of all days,

I am incredibly happy to have been able to come back to my family, 
my warm bed, 
and my squishy purple blankie, 
and Pinkie.
And I'm thankful that I can fall asleep to music with my earphones in today without worrying about having to wake up early tomorrow.

Sometimes, it's the little things.
Sometimes that's all it takes to be happy.

Jan 3

Things that have made me happy today :

1. My Surgery lecturer accepted my second portfolio case, which means I can start on writing it ASAP (of course I haven't started yet)

2. Aidan Turner interviews.
Aidan Turner interviews have made me particularly happy today.

Oh, and
3. Richard Armitage looking like a guilty schoolboy at the end of this :

Jan 2

Today is a filler day.

But I guess even after dreary days in the ward, 

what still makes me happy is that I get to come back home to friends.

I live with people I like, who like me back just as much.

Filler Days

So today I was wondering,
if the point of a happiness jar is to write down all the things that made you happy on one day,
what about the days when you're not happy?

What do you do then?

I'm not unhappy today.
I'm just not terribly excited or happy about anything either.

It's one of those days that feel like filler chapters in books.
Nothing really happens that contributes to the plot line, but you still have to get through that one chapter to get to the next.

And I'm beginning to realize that ever since joining clinical school, my life has been full of "filler" days.

Fridays are my good days - because I get to go back home/because its the day before the weekend.
Saturdays are my best days. I'm happiest on Saturdays, and on public holidays.
Sundays are the days of doom and gloom because it's the eve of Mondays.
Mondays are the worst.
And then the Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays are just filler days I have to get through before I can reach another Friday.

Rinse, repeat.

Of course there are the occasional week-long holidays we get, which always start out with me being really happy on the first few days,
and then falling into gloom towards the end.



Today is a filler day.

So what do I do on filler days? Or, worse, what do I do on crappy days when I am actually unhappy?

I have two options :

1. If nothing makes me happy, then don't post anything on that day.
2. Reflect on my day and find even the teeniest weeniest thing that made me smile and post about that.


The way I see it,
if I give into the "don't post if you're not happy" idea, I'd probably end up with about twenty posts on this blog at the end of this one year.

The whole idea of this blog was to find something that made me happy every day,
just so I could learn to look on the brighter side of life, right?
So.
Post something every single day anyway even if I'm having a particularly bad day and I have to rack my brains for something that makes me happy?
...let's try that.

Maybe I'll learn to give up on the gloom and doom and force myself to look at the positives for a change.

Jan 1

Well. Hello 2013 :)

First day of the year, and two things to be happy about :

Welcoming the new year, in the arms of my family.
Despite the last minute portfolio and being sick, I was with the people I love.

Also, my brother helped me vacuum my room today.
He only did it because I'm sick, but still.
My brother.
Helping me vacuum my room.
I'm surprised the sun didn't set in the East.