Hiatus

Putting this project on hiatus again until my exams are over, otherwise I'd just be posting for the sake of posting and that was not the point of this.

I foresee lots of hiatuses in the next on year.

Feb 15 : All the Rishtas

Still haven't started studying.
Help me, God.


On the bright side (or not) ...I seem to be attracting prospective in-laws.

I really just want to marry a malayalee Karan Singh Grover.
Ok.

Feb 14 : Valentine's Day!

Made absolutely no difference to me this year - and that in itself is fucking depressing.
I've never had a date for valentine's but usually a bunch of us friends get together and do something crazy just for kicks.
I miss that.
I miss celebrating Valentine's Day.
I'm usually very happy on Val Day.


Oh well.

Okay, so not exactly happy today,
but managed to watch the Valentine's Day ep of Qubool Hai today itself, and omg the dancing scene gave me ALL the feels!

Feb 13 : Twins!

The twins came to visit today!
So cute oh my god.

Plus my nephew is teething - I think he chewed half my hand.


Since its already Feb 14th here : Happy Valentine's Day!

Feb 12 : Studying

Dammit I keep forgetting to post.

So yesterday (Feb 12), I was going to post about how I was happy that I had finally started studying..
...only I hadn't.

Studied one chapter,
and then discovered that Karan Singh Grover used to be on a dance reality show I used to watch...so I went and watched the whole season he was in.

yep.

Feb 11 : Apologies

This isn't exactly something that makes me happy (but it's the only thing I can think of posting today okay so).

So today my mother was being mean to me about something,
and I'm particularly short-tempered these days, so I just stormed off to my room to study. (..ended up youtubing instead; what else is new?)
and then when I came down for dinner,
my mother suddenly hugged me and said sorry.

My heart broke.

I can't handle my parents apologizing.
Even if something was their fault.
Even if I'm hopping mad.
I can't handle them saying sorry.

Feb 10 : 12 points clear

United remain top of the table.

Feb 9 : La Bodega

Tapas with the family, for dinner.
Got to dress up today - first time in a long while.

Feb 8 : oops

I forgot to post yesterday!

Met up with the housemates yesterday to *cough* study.
I was happy.
I was with family. After 2.5 years they have become family.

Feb 7 : Midnight conversations

Thought I fought with someone last week - turns out we're still okay. :)
(I'm ridiculously oversensitive)


And midnight conversations over whatsapp about finding love.
"Get your lazy ass out of the house vid. Go out, meet people!" - that line made me laugh so hard.

Not sure if I ever will find love,
but my self-esteem has been slowly increasing over the past few weeks, and today I may start being hopeful again that there might be someone out there in love with me and my ridiculousness.

(Yes I'm a sap kthxbai)

Feb 6 : New Toy

Ta-daaaa!

Going to take a lot of getting used to.
Had my old phone for over 3 years.

Feb 5 : Glitter!

Feeling particularly content today because I've got glittery nail polish and my purple pawprint pyjamas on.

#littlethings

Feb 4 : Home

Went to Seremban today, for half a day...gosh I've missed the hustle and bustle of that hospital.
But suddenly everything seems too cramped though.

It was kind of nice to be back to a place where I spent two years of my life.
Really odd to go back there and not have a house to stay in for the night.

I guess that made me happy because it's finally sinking in that I'm now (semi)permanently living at home.
My life for the next few months at least is not going to be split between two houses in two different states, as it has been for the past few years.

It's finally sinking in that I'm home.

Feb 3 : Harder than I thought

Okay, when I started this "project" I didn't think it would actually be difficult to find things that made me happy everyday.
But it is.
Especially after that happened - I can't seem to be genuinely happy about things anymore.
I mean, I still smile a lot, I still laugh genuinely - but if you ask me if I'm happy?

I don't know anymore.


So I'm just going to go with things that make me laugh/smile for the next few days okay.

Watched Bol Bachchan today, and laughed til I nearly cried.
Here's the trailer,
for fun. :)

Feb 2 : Filler day?

Who knew being happy could be so hard?

Found a couple of good new hindi songs today.
Music always makes me happy.

Feb 1 : New beginnings

I've been getting to play hostess a lot this past one week - which is something I rather enjoy.

Also,
met my cousin today.
After 17 years.
If this family finally comes together I'd be really happy.

It would be too late - but. better than never.