Jan 31

I will try again.

Jan 20

uhm.
well.

Can I be a sap and say I'm just really glad my hpg is following me on facebook even though there's like 0.000000001% chance of anything happening?

yeah.
ok.

Also.
Submitted my Ortho Portfolio to Turnitin today - similarity : 7%.

Fuck yeah.
This blogger doesn't plagiarize. mm-hmm.

Jan 19 : Memories

Almost didn't post today.
huargh.

Not the best of days (I slept for most of it) but :
1. Found a couple of old blog posts I wrote about HPG, in story format. Not the best writing, but. I'm actually glad I wrote them. Some memories are worth keeping.

2. NEW EPISODE OF SUITS. Although this episode was sappy and I really want to punch Mike. And slap Zoe. BUT HARVEY <3

3. Came across Strictly Ballroom again. That movie was my childhood :')

Jan 18 : Home

I'm home.

My 2nd Surgery portfolio only has one correction (hallelujah!).

I've found HPG again.

Jan 17 : Orthopaedics

Got back my Orthopaedics portfolio...and there's just one minor correction.

That's it.
Out of 20-odd pages, all I have to do is change one word.

You have no idea how incredibly happy and relieved I am. One less thing to worry about!

Jan 16 : Goodbye Kluang

Last day in Kluang.

I won't miss it.

Jan 15

..what am I happy about today?

Got my EBM done for my Ortho portfolio?
(that counts, right)
Inadvertently gave myself an extension when I misspelled the lecturer's name last week.
One less thing to worry about.

Jan 14 : The Last Guardian

Belated Christmas gift of sorts that came all the way from the States in the mail today!

Always happifying to receive gifts.

Plus someone I sort of have an on-and-off crush on just followed me on twitter so. yeah. okay. 

:D

Jan 13 : GGMU

Man United 2 -1 Liverpool.

















Also, this happened :

My universe is exploding.


Ok bye. Portfolioooo. :( Procrastination will be the death of me, I swear.

Jan 12 : meh

...

...so my mother agrees with me that Richard Armitage should play the next Bond.

Also that he would probably make a good Sherlock Holmes, and that Benedict Cumberbatch just doesn't quite cut it.
And then we discussed a gazillion classic lit stories and characters.
And that made me really happy for a whole hour.

And then I became really sad that I'm stuck in a science-y profession.

The End.

Jan 11 : The Bad Day

Today was a horrible day.
I'd elaborate but I've been awake over 36 hours and I'm crashing.
Everything that could possibly go wrong today, did.

But there were two absolutely wonderful people who made my day today :
1. The housemate, who broke pretty much every speed limit trying to get from Kluang to Batu Pahat as quickly as possible, for my sake.
2. The concerned boy, who repeated "drive safe" a few times, and then even texted a couple of hours later, just to find out how everything turned out. Simple concern really can go a long way.

Sometimes silver linings come in the form of people.

Worst day of 2013 so far, and now I'm going to go sleep it off.
I don't even have my specs with me, dammit.

Jan 10 : Portfolio Discussion

Ended up presenting my case in class today.
Didn't want to, initially, but ended up doing it anyway.

Dr Ismail was an absolute darling.
He'd already given me very good feedback via email, but today's session helped even more.

And finally, after the disaster that was Gynae, my self-confidence has been restored somewhat.
My Surgical Portfolio was well-written.
And today I don't feel stupid.


But alas, my Ortho portfolio is due tomorrow morning and its already past 12 and I am so sleepy.

Jan 9 : No Reasons

Wasn't actually happy happy about anything today,

but I'm sitting here listening to The Scientist by Coldplay,
and grinning at a conversation taking place on facebook,
so I guess I am happy.

For no specific reason.


“Be happy for no reason, like a child. If you are happy for a reason, you’re in trouble, because that reason can be taken from you.”

- Deepak Chopra

Jan 8 : The Miserable Ones

Felt really good to give my car a speed run today.
It felt like being able to stretch my legs after being in a cramped position for so long.
Plus the adrenaline rush from going at top speed always puts me in a good mood.

Also, Les Miserables! Hugh Jackman <3

And at the end of the day,
hanging out with my housemates on my bed, laughing about things.

It was a good day.
And an equally good night.

Jan 7th : Interview!

Posting early today because I got done with my first ever job interview!
Went very well (probably the easiest ever job interview in the history of existence tbh).

Plus us housemates were in the same group :D

Now I just have to wait for my appointment letter.
erk.

Jan 6th : Thou shalt not stress about thy interview

Almost forgot to post!
(a whole one hour late)

Today I woke up happy, which is a first in a long time.

Also happy because the guy who gave us the briefing for the housemanship interview today was really nice.
He put us all at ease about what we'd be likely to face tomorrow,
so I actually do feel much better about the interview already.

But omg I actually don't know what to say if they ask me to introduce myself.
Or if they ask me "Why medicine?"

Ad-libbing it is!

Jan 5 : Referee

Two minutes ago,
I was about to post : "I am finding it very difficult to be happy today" and leave it at that.
Today really has been a bad day.

But I just received an email from someone I admire very, very much,
allowing me to state them as a referee for my resume.

(I asked if I could use them as a reference, and the reply was..)
"Yes Vidya, you may use me as a REFEREE"
(in caps, no less)

And now I'm just sitting here, both laughing and crying at the same time.

Thank you, Dato'.

And thank You, God, for this silver lining.



EDIT :
Squealing now because another one of my favourite lecturers replied!
It's 12.02am, I don't care this still counts as Jan 5th.

Jan 4 : Little Things

Decided to start titling my posts properly instead just the date, for easier archiving.

Promised myself I wouldn't take the easy way out and say things like
"being able to come back home to my teddy bears made me happy today"
...because that makes me happy every day.


But today was an incredibly long day, with OT, and classes, and traffic jams, and incessant rain,
and I genuinely mean it when I say today of all days,

I am incredibly happy to have been able to come back to my family, 
my warm bed, 
and my squishy purple blankie, 
and Pinkie.
And I'm thankful that I can fall asleep to music with my earphones in today without worrying about having to wake up early tomorrow.

Sometimes, it's the little things.
Sometimes that's all it takes to be happy.

Jan 3

Things that have made me happy today :

1. My Surgery lecturer accepted my second portfolio case, which means I can start on writing it ASAP (of course I haven't started yet)

2. Aidan Turner interviews.
Aidan Turner interviews have made me particularly happy today.

Oh, and
3. Richard Armitage looking like a guilty schoolboy at the end of this :

Jan 2

Today is a filler day.

But I guess even after dreary days in the ward, 

what still makes me happy is that I get to come back home to friends.

I live with people I like, who like me back just as much.

Filler Days

So today I was wondering,
if the point of a happiness jar is to write down all the things that made you happy on one day,
what about the days when you're not happy?

What do you do then?

I'm not unhappy today.
I'm just not terribly excited or happy about anything either.

It's one of those days that feel like filler chapters in books.
Nothing really happens that contributes to the plot line, but you still have to get through that one chapter to get to the next.

And I'm beginning to realize that ever since joining clinical school, my life has been full of "filler" days.

Fridays are my good days - because I get to go back home/because its the day before the weekend.
Saturdays are my best days. I'm happiest on Saturdays, and on public holidays.
Sundays are the days of doom and gloom because it's the eve of Mondays.
Mondays are the worst.
And then the Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays are just filler days I have to get through before I can reach another Friday.

Rinse, repeat.

Of course there are the occasional week-long holidays we get, which always start out with me being really happy on the first few days,
and then falling into gloom towards the end.



Today is a filler day.

So what do I do on filler days? Or, worse, what do I do on crappy days when I am actually unhappy?

I have two options :

1. If nothing makes me happy, then don't post anything on that day.
2. Reflect on my day and find even the teeniest weeniest thing that made me smile and post about that.


The way I see it,
if I give into the "don't post if you're not happy" idea, I'd probably end up with about twenty posts on this blog at the end of this one year.

The whole idea of this blog was to find something that made me happy every day,
just so I could learn to look on the brighter side of life, right?
So.
Post something every single day anyway even if I'm having a particularly bad day and I have to rack my brains for something that makes me happy?
...let's try that.

Maybe I'll learn to give up on the gloom and doom and force myself to look at the positives for a change.

Jan 1

Well. Hello 2013 :)

First day of the year, and two things to be happy about :

Welcoming the new year, in the arms of my family.
Despite the last minute portfolio and being sick, I was with the people I love.

Also, my brother helped me vacuum my room today.
He only did it because I'm sick, but still.
My brother.
Helping me vacuum my room.
I'm surprised the sun didn't set in the East.